Well, I am mostly done with my first day towards a new me :) Before I tell you about my day, I would like to tell you about something I have learned about myself over the last several years.....I am a person who doesn't want to FAIL.....I have found that when it comes to things that I try, but don't have the confidence that I will succeed, I just QUIT, instead....in my mind I would rather quit than fail, this is NOT a healthy perspective, it is not a way of life that will get me to where I am wanting to go, so what does a person do with this kind of knowledge.....well, for me, I have decided that I have to not be afraid to fail, easy to say, harder to do....look at Edison, he failed thousands of times before perfecting the lightbulb, and he said, he didn't fail, he just figured out a lot of ways NOT to make a lightbulb....THAT is a healthy perspective!!!! Also, I need to enter into new challenges without the preconceived notion that if I am not doing as well as I want, then I will just quit....I need to start this new challenge with the heart of a fighter, KNOWING that it won't be easy, but the GREAT things in life never are easy, but ALWAYS worth it!!! Now, on to the first day of my new life.....it started in the most humbling of ways....with a trip to the scale!!!! I have decided to make myself completely vulnerable and tell you what the scale said....I feel that I need to take ownership of exactly where I am at in starting this journey....so, i will tell you that the scale said I weighed 280.....that is where I am starting *sigh* I went downstairs and made my "shake" with banana, strawberry and blueberry.....it was NASTY!!! Ugh, something about having all those green veggies in the shake mix, BUT it is suppose to be good for me, so instead of pouring it down the drain and saying "forget this"....I drank it down.....then went to my water aerobics class (2 hours) then came home and ate a pound of green beans, and washed it down with ANOTHER SHAKE!!!! Ugh :( I will say that this one, I made with more strawberries, and added grapes to make it taste a little sweeter, and it was better....I did take a nap today, cause frankly I was SUPER tired :) But when I got up, I ate some raw broccoli, and then had a 3rd and final shake for dinner with another pound of green beans, cooked in some coconut oil with some mushrooms and onions.....it was pretty tasty, and I am feeling very good about my day.....one day down....now, I will tell you that there were many times during the day when I was preparing food for my beautiful children, that I was tempted to just lick the peanut butter knife, or eat a few of their cheese puffs.....it took a very conscious effort to not just eat things out of habit, I am not going to worry about tomorrow or how long I can keep this up, I am just going to focus on the positive, fight like a tiger for each victory, and be determined to NOT QUIT!!!! Have a good night everyone :)